Yawning.Poon

I am paranoid. Paranoid usually leads to over-sensitivity which causes suspicion and thus creates doubt and sooner or later you know what you had been so afraid is going to happen and has happened before you knew it. But how can I help it? How can anyone help it? Even after marriage, when you had made a vow of commitment, there is still a way out to an ending; the divorce. I had honestly been in enough relationships to understand how it feels to lose someone who was a beautiful stranger, then an intriguing friend and later, an exciting lover. Of course, given an amount of time that can only be defined by oneself, I will no longer feel so broken, I would move on as life goes on, I will meet someone else again. The security I have now sometimes scares me. Not being in a serious relationship had spared me, but (thank you KK) after this two long years, I have been in bliss for the longest time, I don’t think it is possible to not be this way. Of course I wish for the best, for ‘everlasting’, but if the unfavourable really happens…